sometimes when you find out, realise, discover, or experience something..and you don't let it affect you on the outside, you seem to think you've overcome it. you seem to think that everythings okay as long as you keep it together. but no matter how long you keep it together..its going to eat its way inside out, and slowly it will rip you apart - who knows when it will eventually break you, but it will, it will break you so much that your trust, your heart, your pride, dignity and confidence are mere specks of tattered waste you once had.
but just remember that being able to survive it, doesn't mean that it was ever okay.