i dont know how more people haven't got mental health problems thinking is one of the most stressful things i've ever come across and not being able to articulate what i want to say drives me crazy. i think i should read more books learn some new words. my sister used to read the dictionary i'm gonna to start with that. i'd like to travel, i want to see india and the pyramids, a whale and that race with all the bicycles in france. i'm not sure about rivers they scare me, but i love swimming, i'm good at it and when i swim i count the laps and this helps me relax. when i was younger i saw a house burn down and i walked past it everyday for the next six years. derelict black chalky and dangerous, i wondered if squatters lived there, I’m still not sure but i know there were never any parties cause it was a shithole. after a while the council got round to tidying up the town they decided it was an eye sore so they tore it down. behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crappy graffiti and the word cunt written in giant letters and now i walked pass that. i like going to the park, i like walking through it, i like taking my dogs there and friends and i like being alone, i like being able to shout but i wish i could be quiet. when i'm quiet people think i'm sad and usually i am sometimes when i'm at a really noisy train station one of the ones with the big fat trains like kings cross i feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because i have something to say.